“I wasn’t their first choice”

On Tuesday, he posted a 13-minute video in which he told “my truth” about how he ended his engagement to Jenn over the phone and all the disastrous details about how he ended their relationship immediately after the cameras stopped rolling and started direct messaging other women — and even unfollowed Maria Georgas. In his message, he revealed a slew of alleged text messages between him and Tran.

Well, by sharing his “truth,” Devin apparently revealed more than he was comfortable with, prompting him to issue an apology on his Instagram stories just hours later. We weekly.

“I am deeply sorry for disclosing sensitive information,” Devin said in his apology. “That was not my intention.”

The “sensitive information” came from an alleged text exchange between him and Jenn, which he showed, and was presumably shared without her permission.

“My only intention is to show the relationship from my perspective. I have nothing to gain from this text conversation being shown,” he continued. “I promise you, this was a mistake. I tried to censor all of our personal/sensitive information, I honestly overlooked that and messed it up.”

He acknowledged that there were “no words” to make the situation “better,” but he wanted to “make sure that there was no intention to show this text.” He concluded his message by saying, “I hope you can forgive me in your heart.”

However, he did not specify which text he was referring to – although he allegedly included some messages of a sexual nature in the first version of the video. He pulled the original version down and re-uploaded it, removing some of the messages.

The newer version of his “truth” video is still online, but his apology is not.

In the footage, Devin was quick to assure Bachelor Nation that nothing in his 13-minute video was intended to “denigrate Jenn in any way” or “say anything negative about her.” But given the extremely negative reaction he's received since she attacked him on live TV, fans wanted something from him… certainly more than he gave that night, or seemingly to Jenn since their mutual marriage proposals in Hawaii.

“I wanted to come here and hopefully try to bring a little more context to the situation because of the things that are being said about me,” Devin explained. “All I'm going to do here is share my side, take responsibility and apologize for some of the things I didn't get to say. [the finale].”

He argues that his relationship with Jenn, like all relationships, is “mutual,” arguing, “I think we can both be held accountable.” At the same time, he acknowledged that he was just trying to clear up “some rumors and misrepresentations” about him, but acknowledged that he is not perfect.

At that point, he began showing alleged text messages between him and Jenn, including her “cheering him on” before the live finale and conversations in which he said he defended his breakup over the phone.

“She's basically forcing it out of me,” he said in the video. “I tried to meet with her. I tried to go to the 'happy couple' and she wouldn't let me.”

“Happy Couple” refers to fixed dates agreed by the producers for the winners between the filming of their season and the live announcement of the winner.

Devin also refuted Jenn's claim that he resisted couples counseling, saying he made “multiple appointments with her” and they even attended “a few sessions together” while also seeing their respective personal counselors from the show.

“The reason I stopped going to couples counseling is because Jenn fired our original therapist without consulting me,” Devin claimed in his video. “I had to find out through an email from our therapist saying she was sorry it didn't work out.”

“I confronted Jenn about it and she never gave me an explanation,” he continued. “All she could say was that she didn't like her and that she wasn't experienced enough.”

This was a red flag for him, as he felt “devalued” as a partner because he was left out of the decision. He felt that “no matter what I said, what I did, my opinion on the matter, it was completely brushed aside.”

Another point of contention was Jenn's claim that he started pulling away from her the moment they left Hawaii, while Devin said he didn't pull away from her until weeks after they broke up, and that was only because he was trying to move on.

“As hard as it is to say, I needed this for my own happiness,” he explained, while also admitting that he probably shouldn't have posted a follow-up to Maria Georgas the morning after his split from Jenn.

Maria was a competitor with Jenn for Joey Graziadei’s season of The Bachelor and was widely considered the favorite to be the Bachelorette before she reportedly declined. Jenn even heard from some of her suitors that they expected it to be Maria instead of her.

When asked why Devin acted the way he did in the finale when Jenn snapped at him, he said that her reaction took him completely by surprise because he thought they actually got along well.

“I had no idea what we had talked about up until then,” he said of what happened before he came out. “Everything we talked about after the breakup made me think we were on good terms.”

For Devin, it was especially hard in terms of his feelings to watch the show again and realize that she seemed to feel much more for her eventual runner-up, Marcus Shoberg, than for him.

While Devin lamented that she had not yet told him her love, Jenn had already confessed her love to Marcus and was complaining that He was unable to return those feelings for her. Devin saw it this way: “I had to clearly watch myself fall behind someone else.”

“I don't blame her for the feelings she had for Marcus,” he said of Jenn's declaration of love, “but I was never informed of it at any point during our relationship.” Instead, he said he was only made aware of it during their separation.

“I wasn't her first choice,” he added, admitting that watching led to his “callous” behavior during the finale. “At that point, I felt validated in my feelings for breaking up with her in the first place,” he said of her love story with Marcus.

After telling his story, Devin stressed that he was not trying to “play the victim” but was just explaining his side of the story. He also concluded with a direct apology to Jenn for the pain he had caused her.

“As much as Jenn means to me, as much as I love Jenn, I really felt like there was no other choice,” he said of their split, but he believes it was the best decision for his own happiness.

To Jenn, he said, “I'm really, really sorry for how things turned out,” he said. “It was never my intention to hurt you, and I'm sorry for hurting you.”

You can read Jenn's side of the story here, she posted it earlier in the day on Kaitlyn Bristowe's From the vine Podcast, below: